Why am I still up? It’s the moon, the moon, it’s much too bight.
It’s the silence, it’s my heart,
all the thumping, footsteps, running.
Why am I still awake?
It’s the lumps in my bed,
It’s the sea, it’s the sea, it’s much to dark,
and it’s crashing in on itself, and I’m afraid, I’m scared that it will
disappear, disintegrate in every smash of every pulse.
The walls are much too smooth, my bed is much too safe. Why am I still up?
Because my coffee cup is empty, and I smashed it into shards
and they’re turning into powder, and so, what if when I pour my cup next
I mistake the pottery sand for coffee beans and make my tea with that instead?
I’ll wind up dead!
And if there are tangents, are they staying up late at night, sitting with steaming cups, plotting over benches like so many sharp toothed worms, grinning at my discomforture when I find I cannot sea them,
are they underground?
And was that last typo an intentional working of my brain
as a deep illusion to the ocean or, not?
My head aches, that is why I cannot sleep.
And why am I still up? Well would you put me down?
What would you call this sweet insomnia if it was late for tea?
And if I was running with it, would you wait?